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she should talk

i dont understand how i find it when i expect nothing

yet when i make the honest effort to be the man she wants/needs

i find that someone else has her elegantly and completely around his finger

maybe i need to stop handing fucks out like they matter…

no fucks shall be given by my unfortunately fortunate heart

but logically (in my life) this means something is sure to come along

should i be expectant? 

no fucking fuck, i hate this waiting around bullshit.

another night

With all of this I know now
Everything inside of my head
It all just goes to show how
Nothing I know changes me at all
Again I waited for this to change instead
To tear the world in two
Another night with her
But I’m always wanting you

use me.

With all of this I feel now
Everything inside of my heart
It all just seems to be how
Nothing I feel pulls at me at all
Again I waited for this to pull apart
To break my time in two
Another night with her
But I’m always wanting you

use me.

She’s all I need
She’s all I dream
She’s all I’m always wanting
She’s all I need
She’s all I dream
She’s all I’m always wanting you
I’m always wanting you
I’m always wanting you

please use me.

She’s all I need
She’s all I dream
She’s all I’m always wanting
She’s all I need
She’s all I dream
She’s all I’m always wanting you

And all again I wait for this
To fill a whole, to shake the sky in two
Another night with her
I’m always wanting you
Another night with her
But I’m always wanting you

come on and use me holly, but i’m always wanting…

it’s blink, but i feel its appropriate.
i want her but i feel it will not happen.

god fucking damnit. this sucks. 

confusion

i invest too much in things i’m not sure about and i always get myself to stop, but it never seems to last very long.  i’ve let go of so much for so long, i hope this doesn’t stop hurting.

not fair.

goddamnit allen… god fucking damnit.

what to do

i don’t know how to interact with girls when i want to be with them.