i dont understand how i find it when i expect nothing
yet when i make the honest effort to be the man she wants/needs
i find that someone else has her elegantly and completely around his finger
maybe i need to stop handing fucks out like they matter…
no fucks shall be given by my unfortunately fortunate heart
but logically (in my life) this means something is sure to come along
should i be expectant?
no fucking fuck, i hate this waiting around bullshit.